Deceited and defeated.....

I just don't quite understand why people just can't stick to their words.
Is there no integrity on this face of the earth anymore?

One moment I was told that I need to change my flight.
Another I was told that thoughts have been sorted and now am committed to stand by your plans and not change anything.
Now I just got an annoucement that the ship anniversary is so important to the guys on board that you HAVE to be there?

In the first place, if the ship anniversary was so God-damn important, why was it not planned ahead and after several changes, it was fixed just last week, that is 2 weeks BEFORE the event? So is it that important or is it just some bloke who forgot and when pressed for updates so decides on a date only to realise that the list of the dates provided clashed with the big bosses' schedule?

Secondly, why are the lines between work and personal life not drawn properly? I don't understnad the need to bring work home. Is it because that's just so much to do that it has to eat into the private personal time? Or is it a meer time management issue? I brought home before cos it was a tight deadline but a time for dinner is a time for dinner, a time for rest is a time for rest, I set aside a time for "overtime" work and there... no infringement of anything else. Well, you may have your personal life and work life all messed up and yes, it's true, it's your freaking life anyways. This, I totally agree. Then my next question to you is "Why the hell are you infringing on mine then?" If you can't draw your lines clear, that's your freaking problem. But hey, I got mine all mapped out right and nice, so don't you come mess up mine too with yours? This is NOT acceptable.

Thirdly, I don't understand the logic of moral support. Wasn't that being provided on a daily basis? You get calls and sms's in the middle of the night when your men can't seem to handle the daily life issues. You stayed up to sort out their thoughts and their life during office hours to the point you reach home at midnight. So how is that half a day of moral support at the ship anniversary when your men are playing games going to make any difference? That crap? I don't understand.

Lastly, don't apologise to me :-

1. The ship anniversary was not dictated by you so it's not your fault. Thus, no apologises required.
2. Your men are losers and require you, alone, a single officer to give moral support which like hell it's going to make any difference anyways... but it is not your fault that they are losers. Again, no need to apologise.
3. Your boss is uncompassionate, unreaslistic, unreasonable, utter mother-f*&ker who used emotional blackmail to make you attend that god-damn ship anniversary cos your loser men needs your support so bad and it is dire that you be there for them. Having such a boss is also not any fault of yours. Therefore, it is not needed for you to apologise.
4. You having your personal life and work life all screwed up is your own freaking problem. So don't apologise for it.

However, YOU having to screw up my plans cos of some idiots I do not even know, THAT you have to freaking apologise, which I know you did. BUT I DO NOT ACCEPT.

The reason is very simple. We made this plan 6 months ago. All planned and notified. The dates have been set aside and my Singapore friends have changed their schedule to synchronise with ours. My Hong Kong friends have rearranged their plans to accommodate ours. There are too many changes to be made and I am NOT willing to sacrifice these people for yours.

Yes, it's a stand-off.

It's too bad that our tickets are paired and there is no way I will agree to fly on any other timing other than the one I fixed. The only solution is that YOUR mother-f&%ker boss compensates me on the 2 present tickets that I have, buy me another INDIVIDUAL ticket which flies me on the next day and pays me back on that 1 night stay which I will have to give up on the 17th. THAT I might consider.

So it's not that there is no way out. I've provided a solution. Now it's just up to you to go decide which route you wanna take.

Frankly, we have issues and are working on it but don't put me through cycles of euphoria. I hate that. Life should be simple without added complexities of confusion. We already have basic principality differences which is already testing my patience. Don't test my patience nor my limit. Patience is a virtue I have no time to cultivate. Limit is something which I reset on a daily basis and I think you've been using up the quota faster than you think. If this is not an ultimatum for you, I don't know what else is. It's your life, you decide what you really want in life. Work Life or Personal Life? For me, I will choose Personal cos I can find work anywhere. What do you stand for?